Sources – One Room, Many Worlds

…It’s Complicated

Photo by San Quentin News staff

Teaching inside of a prison has a number of challenges, and most are completely unrelated to the subject matter. Among the most apparent is the element of privilege: because I am not incarcerated, I can go home. At the end of class, I can walk across the yard, out the gate, get in my car and drive away. I can choose where I live, eat, work, and attend school. I can choose to travel locally, nationally, and internationally. I can communicate with my family, friends, and colleagues on my own terms. I can, in most hypothetical cases, advocate for my own well-being and my rights without fear of retaliation or harm. This privilege, which is deeply embedded in my everyday life, is a created by my intersecting identities, which result social positionality as a white, cisgender, straight woman who was born in the United States to college-educated parents. 

To even conceive of teaching inclusive courses in prison would be incredibly difficult without the willingness to acknowledge and discuss race, racism, whiteness, and white supremacy. It is standard practice for incarcerated individuals to self-segregate according to race, for numerous political reasons that expand beyond the scope of this project. And of course, the number of incarcerated persons who are non-white (mostly Black or Hispanic) far exceeds the number of white people who are in prison. This is reflected in my current class population: of the 37 total students enrolled in my two classes this semester, 21 are Black and seven are white (the remaining men are either either Asian or Hispanic). As a result of navigating the teaching experience as a white woman whose students who are predominately men of color, I find the assertions put forth by Asao Inoue to be absolutely imperative when considering how to best understand student perspectives on literacy. In the introduction to Labor Based Grading Contracts: Building Equity and Inclusion in the Writing Classroom, Inoue discusses the importance of acknowledging the presumed authority and power that inherently accompany teaching as white supremacist practice. In anticipation of protest by teachers (especially from  those of us who are white), Inoue explains that teachers must stay the course and reflect on our positionality to recognize that the systems by which we operate are not neutral (p. 6). Further, Inoue urges teachers who feel that they are being unfairly accused of perpetuating white supremacist narratives to consider, then, the affects of such practices on their students who belong to marginalized populations, daring teachers to “suffer with us” (p. 6). 

It has become apparent to me that teaching, especially teaching reading and writing, serves to reproduce practices and conventions that effectively marginalize entire demographic populations. Anecdotally, many of my students feel that they have been left out of the system of education due to their backgrounds: as men of color, or who grew up in a low-income household, had one or both parents incarcerated, whose lived experiences do not mirror those understood to be normal of members of our society. Statistically, this is represented by the findings such as that  only 52% of black males graduate from high school in four years, compared to 78% of white male students;  (Schott Foundation for Public Education, 2012, as cited in Dancy, 2014). The exclusion of marginalized people from literacy is a result of the deeply ingrained ideological values and resulting practices that McCormick and Waller discuss in their article, Text, Reader, Ideology. By employing critical approaches to reading and writing, students are able to develop the tools with which to develop their own student identities, rather than parroting the ideas of the dominant culture.

When we as teachers participate (unknowingly or otherwise) in a societal structure that has been constructed to serve some students and exclude others, we risk training students to remain complicit in an oppressive colonialist society, which perpetuates the unjust conditions that create circumstances for continued marginalization. (hooks, Teaching Critical Thinking). Whether or not we like to acknowledge it, teaching is a political act itself (Freire, p. 5).

So, my messy and incomplete conclusion is, we, as educators, have to be open to change. Because students have been indoctrinated into this system of power as if it’s the normal way of operating, just as the rest of us have, teachers need to be mindful that students will likely resist deviation from traditional academic structure, because the traditional structure signifies legitimacy. I have to be willing to have the hard conversations around power and race and oppression, even if doing so feels like I’m implicating myself. I have to be willing to consider the worlds of my students, and to help facilitate their understanding of academic conventions without presenting them as superior. I have to be an advocate for students who are usually not represented in the greater academic community, which generally means that I have to contextualize the academic conventions typical of a college English classroom (for example, literary analysis, persuasion, style, voice, and rhetorical choices) in ways that value student experience.

And, most of all, I have to care. Sometimes that means showing up to teach on Sundays evenings for a couple hours, sometimes it means reading the essays I think are brilliant, and telling the students how great they are. Other times, I have to care in ways that might seem inconvenient, like sitting down with a student who has a hard time reading from print, and reading aloud to him for an hour and a half after class. Admitting, while reading aloud with said student, that I don’t know how to pronounce “usurpations” in the Declaration of Independence. Letting students know that it’s okay to say when I don’t know something. Growing up, I learned that it was definitely not okay to not know what I’m talking about, especially if it’s school-related, and I have to remind myself that it’s important for my students to see that learning is a process and we’re never done. Because I care more about them than I do my ego, I put my own baggage aside and own up when I don’t have the answers. Guess what? Life goes on. We still don’t have a definitive answer about the pronunciation of “usurpations” but over the course of our meeting, that student and I shared some laughs, drew some connections between readings, talked about historical context, and created his outline for his final essay. That’s all much more important than having the “right” answer, and my student, I believe, felt the same. Grades and degrees come and go, but knowing someone has your back–that’s priceless. I can only hope that my students believe me when I tell them I wouldn’t be there if I didn’t care about them.

Reading Response

This is my response to reading this chapter:

Marx, S. (2006). Revealing the invisible: Confronting passive racism in teacher education. New York: Routledge.

 

One of the aspects of teaching in prison that I always struggle with is the fact that I’m white woman, teaching mostly men of color. The reason I struggle with this is because I know that my social positionality leads to a very different worldview than theirs, and, as Marx points out, us white people tend to hold this idea that we’re the neutrality in the color spectrum. This leads to imposition of our own beliefs and norms as “correct” and then we operate by the deficit model. As someone who spends a great deal of my time volunteer-teaching in an under-served community, I can certainly see how tendencies toward saviorism and the resulting perpetuation of oppression could be likely in that space. By (often unconsciously) assuming whiteness is “normal” and anyone of color is deficient in some capacity, we not only serve our own interests by imposing our beliefs on other communities as if they are absolute truths, but we maintain the status quo by feeding our egos and telling ourselves that we are simply being helpful. Our “helpfulness” often serves us more than anyone we’re supposedly serving.

How do I manage this? Well, first, it’s something that I’m consciously aware of, every day. Both in the classroom and in one-on-one conversations with my students, I remain aware of my purpose, which is to amplify the voices of the marginalized, in order to empower them. My purpose is not to speak for them, nor is it to tell them what to say; I am teaching in order to help students develop their voices and engage with the world in whatever way they find meaningful–the specifics are not my decision. I don’t get to define what is “right” or “important” for anyone else. I make mistakes in my assumptions all the time, but it’s my job to learn from those mistakes, and move on. It’s not the job of people of color to console me and ensure my ego stays intact, nor is it their responsibility  educate me.

Marx’s article discussed the tension created between Michelle’s family and the Revnik family when Michelle’s family learned that Mrs. Revnik had been a dermatologist and that the family was indeed quite well educated.  Of course, the tension was created because Michelle’s family was, at a least in part, doing service work in order to feel validated. I’m just speculating here, but I would guess that at least part of why they’re upset is that there is an assumption in our merit-based society, that educated people should not need help, and therefore do not deserve i; educated people should know how to provide for themselves, and if they can’t, clearly it’s their own fault. It frustrates me to no end when the motives behind “service work” are really to serve oneself in terms of validation, and not to actually help anyone else. There can certainly be a lot of ego involved in “giving.”

Finally, I want to point out that marginalized people are acutely aware of this assumed white neutrality and saviorism, and due to generations of racism and violence at the hands of white people, marginalized folks have learned that discussing race with white people only leads to further oppression. This is why critical approaches to education are so important–teachers have to be even more willing to continue learning that our students, because if we are not, we perpetuate all of the societal ills that we claim to be astutely against.

Reading the World

This is another self-reflective blog, assigned in a graduate seminar course on theories of reading.

In a way, I think that the material in this course has helped me consciously notice, articulate, and conceptualize many beliefs that I’ve held for a long time. One idea I’ve now come to wholly believe is, reading is a dynamic exchange, rather than a passive reception of information. As I discussed in Blog Post #1, reading has always been comfortable and relatively easy for me, and I think that this confidence also applies to my writing ability, which has always come intuitively.

It is both enlightening and disheartening to apply what I’m learning at SFSU to the courses I’m currently teaching at Hillcrest juvenile hall and San Quentin State Prison. I have never been more aware of the complexities in literacy disparities. I think there is a lot of identity conflict around some of this, as a proponent of social justice who is also a white woman, I acknowledge that there is probably some element of the white savior complex, because I do want to be considered “one of the ‘good’ white people” by my students of color (the overwhelming majority are either Black or Latino. I think that out of 41 students, maybe seven or eight are white. The fact that I only teach incarcerated men adds another layer of complication as well).  Continue reading “Reading the World”

Words and Life

This is a blog post assignment that I wrote for a graduate seminar course on theoretical backgrounds in teaching community college reading at SFSU.

I grew up in a home with two college educated parents—my mom has a bachelor’s degree in English literature from Northwestern University, and my dad holds an MBA from Stanford University’s Graduate School of Business. I didn’t even realize college was optional until I was probably 14 or 15. Failure was most definitely not an option—and a “C” grade might as well have been an “F.” My parents are products of the early Baby Boomer generation, which means that we talked a lot about “good” schools and “bad” schools, and how education was the only way to get a “good job.” I never heard that someone might actually grow as a human being due to what they learned in school. I learned that one must do well in 5th grade so as to be placed in the “advanced” classes in 6th, 7th, and 8th grade, which would set one up for advanced placement in high school, which would pave the way for admission to a “good” college, from which graduating would guarantee that one would not die poor and lonely.  Continue reading “Words and Life”